THE NOTIFICATION FOR MY COLOURPOP SHIPMENT CAME IN, I AM SO EXCITE. For context: I signed up with MyUS.com because they have this sweet membership and shipping promo with Mastercard. As my initial test to see if I'll be sticking with their service for my legal drugs goods from the US, I ordered from Colourpop and Sephora US. Now waiting with bated breath for Sephora to register cos the main part of the test is to see how MyUS bundles the packages together and how much it'll hurt my wallet.

...Eye palettes though, guys. Eye palettes.

Also Banila Co's primer is AMAZING. Nothing budged and I didn't have to blot at all. I also didn't use any setting spray beyond the Witch Hazel facial mist that I spray all over before I head out the door. Definitely going to pit it against Nyx's Angel Veil as soon as I have the funds. I technically DID, but then I spent good money on snacks.

Don't judge me too much okay it's been a while.

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So, as mentioned yesterday, this entry is going to talk about gender and sex stuff. This is my first time articulating all of this somewhere. Pls to skip if you don't wanna read.

( Some of us do want to be fucked like an animal. )

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Finished all of the Malice Kings, and am stupidly proud of how the picsets turned out. Going to be doing sets now for NPCs, then scenes that have been RPed or have happened in-game.

Taking a moment out to write more things down. This weekend was simultaneously exhilarating, reassuring and heavy - heavy for reasons that are currently sorting themselves out though, so please don't worry friends. I will be okay.

Girls Got Game is now Play Without Apology/PWOA. I don't have the words to describe how grateful I am that all the effort, all the waiting, all the everything has brought me and the other site parents to this moment. There are many plans for this year, and I hope we'll be able to see some - if not, all - of it through.

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Went out to lunch with Pio on Monday because he was in the office. It is nice being able to talk to an older brother who UNDERSTANDS, and - when he does not - is willing to listen.

Between his presence and my own, I think the family company will be okay.

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Moving my free day to Fridays so that I almost always have an auto-long weekend. My free day used to be in the middle of the week because of the way things were in FEU but now it seems to make more sense for me to have an extended break rather than chopping things up in the middle of everything and still feeling tired.

Yesterday was challenging because as things are wont to go, family and family business plus personal matters will find new and creative ways of slamming into you all at the same time and a body and heart can only take so much. Thankfully, Card Captor Sakura was around for me to wile the hours away and reboot my brain.

Fun fact: this is the first time I am legit reading CCS. I wish I had gotten on the boat sooner now; the series is queer as fuck.

Am also revisiting Natsume Yuujinchou because I blinked and holy shit there are six seasons? LAST I CHECKED THERE WERE ONLY THREE.

Conversations with good folks last Saturday had me reflecting once again on all the narratives that truly influenced mine. Natsume was definitely one of them. X/1999 was another (also, admittedly, the reason why Hikaru Shinta has violet eyes yes shut up I know), together with Mushishi and XXXHoLiC. One day I will list down all the things that really informed my writing, and, by extension, my tabletop campaigns.

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Judith-bee helped me figure out what might be causing my primer and face to eat my makeup up. Now I just need to buy a primer that'll test this theory without destroying my wallet. After a smol pep talk from the parents, I have decided to lower my CC expenses per month down from P12,000.00 to P8,000 or less, with occasional P10,000.00 if there is something I truly, truly need. Am also making good on ferrying away all the red bills and loose change for more savings.

I have enjoyed my money a whole lot as of late, but I am also getting older. I do wish, though, that more people would get how hard it is to save up when you don't actually have a lot of net pay to go around. I have never earned monthly past 28k in my life, and note: I pay for my own upkeep, meds and all, pretty much all the time on top of contributions to the household.

I know, by far, that I am still much better off than most. I don't need to pay for my own food, my own electricity and rent, and even my own clothes on occasion. Nevertheless, I think everyone deserves to feel like they aren't just working for work's sake more often than not.

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Creative cycles are strange. I have been on a picset mood as of late for my tabletop, and I still have a lot of world building in the wings. meiyamie has also had me revisiting some of my old fanfiction since she is on a writing trip herself. Then there are, as always, playlists to sort out, and all those old bits - fanfiction, fiction, long fanfiction, original projects - that I have not gotten back to. THEN there are articles for PWOA.

Where Am I Gonna Get the Time: Season 32.

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Still tripping out on Nier Automata songs. They're the best okay FITE ME IF YOU DISAGREE.

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Note to self: clean your fucking room. Stop thinking about it. Just do it.

So I came marching in here all ready to start my first entry in years(!!!) only to realize how much cleaning up I need to do before I use this thing for what I want to use it for.

Hello everyone, I am Pammu. Used to go by Kae/Kaesteranya, used to RP (smut) a lot. Some of you may remember me from Dirty Vegas, Eudio, and Soul Campaign. Gonna lock this thing down really soon because a lot has changed, and now that I am in my 30s I find myself in need of an online space that I can 100% claim as my own. Facebook isn't inasmuch as many of my closest friends are on it now, Twitter exists for politics and RTs of cats, Plurk often feels like shouting into the void.

If you're still interested in reading and catching up and such, please comment here. I did similar shoutouts on my Plurk account (@NiaSatou) and on my FB. I'll come back to this by next week and start cutting away at whoever's on my Circle and didn't check in.

There is no better way to kick start entries of a new year with lists. :3

Resolutions and Goals for 2012

• Learn how to manage my time better, which naturally includes learning how to relax properly. NOT DOING ANYTHING IS SOMETIMES ACCEPTABLE, SELF.
  
• Learn a new language, preferably Japanese.
  
• Read more. Finish 100 books, at least. MA readings DO NOT COUNT.
  
• Work properly on one of my original projects.
  
• Finish one of my long fanfics. Projects of choice: Nothing Was Ever Lost (Soul Campaign), Return on Investment (KHR!), Every Day Is The Yesterday of Tomorrow (P3), Coming Back (P3), Fiore di Nuvola (KHR!), The End's Not Near (Gintama), and your AU!TST things.
  
• Go back to your practice of writing birthday fic for people you love.
  
• Do at least 200 Gintama fanfics, long projects or otherwise.
  
• Move mountains to reconnect with friends and make new ones.
  
• Get published in Kritika Kultura. You're almost there, bb.
  
• Save more on a monthly basis. Find a reasonable target for this!
  
• Attempt to get into that Video Games Conference in July.
  
• Lose 30 pounds.
  
• Exercise!
  
• Stop forgetting to take calcium pills.
  
• Become adept at firearms.
  
• RP and plurk a little less, blog a little more.
  
• Clean and reorder your room.
  
• Replay/play the PS3 games in your collection.
  
• Sing. Like, honest-to-god, get back to singing again.
  
• Be more present to the family.
  
• Hang out with Pio and Petrik more.
  
• Stick with the diet and avoid softdrinks and snackage.
  
• Watch all the things sitting on your hard drives.
  

Things to Acquire in 2012

• An external hard drive.
  
• A carrier for Gouto.
  
• Stuff to help reordering your room along.
  
• A new mouse for the PC.
  
• A music player.
  
• New clothes!
  
• Boots.
  

Lots of things, big and small. I think I'd be pleased if I manage to do even a handful of them.